The only point is that you consciously recognize your inner truth and take it seriously, including its consequences.

Volume 12 No. 11

Where is the power and the glory now?

Where is the power and the glory now?

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Text Satsang

From a talk in Gouda, March 30, 2011

Self-Reliance (Part 3)

Visitor: It is difficult to find clarity about the area of “I am”, just to realize that you are. Then you are awake and that consciousness disappears again when you reenter into the dream of the world. When you go off in search of yourself once again, there’s really nothing there.

Douwe: So it’s about a surrender with an internal awareness. What does it mean that there is a surrender at a certain point, when for example you are sucked out to sea?

That’s a sort of attitude you almost can’t take.

There is no attitude here that you should be able to take. You can always become more sensitive to it and then, while you remain with yourself, at some point it will just happen.

Then where are you focused? On your sense of self, on your being, or on the nothing that lies behind it?

Let your awareness remain infinitely open. In that sphere your being-awareness will open. Let the process of infinite release continue, up to and including the complete surrender. As long as you notice that somewhere, something still has a name and form, you will need to take note of that and let go.

When something receives a designation, you experience it as a thing with an independence in relation to self-being. This separation in being-awareness disappears with the ongoing release.

Is it possible to take this step?

It’s not a step. Surrender is precisely the release of all initiative and of any notion ‘I can’. You can just stay on the edge of your existence in a very sensitive way. You know approximately in which direction the development goes, namely an ongoing release until there is the complete surrender. Stay there. Then it goes further by itself. Don’t hold on to any concepts. In a certain referential context concepts such as the witness, sat-chit-ananda, I-am, are quite useful, but at a given moment there is nothing other than self-being in which everything dissolves. Internally there is a knowledge of it, a knowledge without distance, a being-knowledge.

In the Yoga Sutra there is a whole series of ‘samâdhi’s’ listed. Samadhi is a totality of one-being, a coincidence of subject and object, of which there is an internal knowledge. Samadhis come in many varieties. Initially, there are still thoughts remaining, then all kinds of emotional structures.

At a certain point all forms dissolve, including that of yourself. That is no longer a state of a person who is meditating. No it is a total event, in which the situation fundamentally shifts.

Then you no longer have a notion of it?

There is no one with a notion of it and yet there is a knowing of openness. To the extent there is a knowledge of it, it has already become a creation. Then you just imagine it once again. The formless knowing is there as a being-knowing of your own open dimension. Let the dimension of the total openness open – and that can happen, even as phenomenon return again. Then the openness without ground can remain, because there is a being-knowing of it. To the extent there is again a specific situation, the knowledge is again a creation of a self-being and ‘I know it’. That’s okay, as long as the groundless dimension just remains open. Then the openness remains the broad context of self-being, in which everything arises and again disappears.

How can you become stable in that?

By simply remaining there continually. Then it will stabilize itself. When you think that you have to do all sorts of things in the world there is contraction again. Just see that it is possible to be yourself without becoming wrapped up in anything, even while all sorts of activities continue.

Afterwards it’s very easy to affirm, but during the activities it’s difficult.

We have done all kinds of exercises in order to make it clear, for example walking without walking. There’s walking, but what about yourself? “Yes, I walk.” What about yourSelf? “I am free – I don’t walk.” Isn’t that right?

And that applies to everything – to ideas, and so on, but you’re still stuck.

Stay very sharp and clear so that you can break through the automatic tendency to reattach yourself. That connection is an identification of yourself with the image of yourself as someone who does something. “I walk, I will, I think, I do this, I desire that.” You will want to see the limitation and identification with such clarity that it is broken through.

A certain commitment is required for that.

It only works with a total commitment. Otherwise it doesn’t work.

How can you help yourself with that?

It’s more about a direct recognition, for example, now I say certain things and there is a certain resonance within you. Stick with that resonance, because you recognize its value. That is your first commitment: “I see there is something of importance there.” Because you find it important, you already give it a certain focus, a dedication. When you find it important enough, then don’t you just naturally stay with it constantly?

The worries can be great.

Do you take the consequences of what you see as important? Sure, when you find it’s important enough! And if you don’t find it important enough, then no. Then you continue to complain. Take a look at all the people who just sit complaining… The tendency is very strong in human beings. When you are diagnosed with cancer, many people dive into the role of the victim. “Now I’m caught and it’s bad, it’s really bad; me again, of course.” Sliding into such a state happens very easily. Then you are the product of conditions. You have to take a look at how restrictive this identification is, the sentimentality that it contains.

So it’s about the insight that arises in your own sphere, the liberating insight that you immediately recognize as valuable. That’s the issue. Also with the teaching. Then the words and the teacher are no longer important, but rather the insight into yourSelf which breaks through. It breaks through by itself, when you come closer to yourself. Then it opens up your inner truth that is always already there. The only point is that you consciously recognize that and that you take it seriously, including the consequences.

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